Heart calling

In difficult time, we fall into despair.

Doubts coming out from shadow, well hidden behind vail.

I scream, I scream, and I scream out loud.

So loud my throat breaking out.

What is this Earth asked of me?

What is this Life asked of me?

What else do I have to prove?

You asked me to be strong:

And I am standing tall by myself.

You asked me to be resilience:

And I face all obstacles thrown my way!

You ask me to be my own Master:

And I am here on my own will!

You ask me to trust:

And I am here flowing with Destiny,

No Purpose, no Destination, no Thought.

By why? Why I have to be on my own?

Is so lonely and very scary.

You say this is the only way to experience the fullness,

What else do I need to understand?

Can I just be a normal Human?

If I ever asked to be here on Earth,

Isn’t the Human experience that I want?

What if that is my one last chance?

Will I ever feel Love again in outer space?

Will I ever feel the pain piercing through my heart with the spade?

I long for Human touch,

The kind that strikes through the blood.

I don’t ask to be Divine,

But simply a Human, this is my final Heart calling.

                                                                        Akata Vesta 21^st Nov 2023